Saturday, April 21, 2012

11 days...

Ok so it has been 11 days since an update. It's hard to write when my life is in such a transition! Rest assured once we move, things will be updated more often! I will work on updating more often.


Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Oh yeah... that wagon...

As you probably could have guessed by the lack of weight loss related posts, I have fallen off the wagon. Well to be really honest, I fell off a while ago. I have just been avoiding the subject.

I can blame it on a lot of things. I am sure I have lots of excuses. The fact is my weight problem has more to do with what's inside then anything else.

So I have decided to focus on the inside. Why I have a dysfunctional relationship with food. Why I eat when I am bored, or emotional. Why I let the way I look act as a shield and an excuse to not have to try that hard or be that successful. Or as the reason I don't have that many friends.

I know I didn't get to 285 lbs because I love the way food tastes. I got to 285 lbs for all the above reasons, and I am sure more.

I recently started a bible study. One of the challenges the leader gave us was to put aside what is holding us in bondage for the next 20 weeks, the length of our study, and try to free ourselves from it. After a lot of thought, I realized it is food and my weight that hold me down. I carry them with me always, and I think the reason I haven't been that successful at losing weight is because if I do, I don't have that excuse. I have to try hard and be successful. That is a lot of pressure.

But I am going to try to let it go, get back on the wagon, and fully understand why I have this problem and how to fix it.

The last day of our study is my birthday, September 10th. I also have this wild goal of being under 200 by my 25th birthday. I have roughly 60 lbs to lose by then. 60 lbs in 5 months. 153 days. 22 weeks. That is a little more than 2.5 lbs a week. I am going to have to work my ass off, but I am ready to do it.

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Fun with Photoshop!

I can not wait to move into our new apartment! Until we do, I can't help but dream up ways to decorate it. You know, after we get everything unpacked! I shared my vision for the living room a few days ago, and I decided the room was not complete without a view of the other side. We will have our entertainment center in the middle, and I want to get 4 ikea Billy shelves (the half sized ones) to put on either side of the tv. I want to paint the backs the same color yellow as the back of the entertainment center.


Of course the shelves will be filled with books, movies and some other decor items we have (like candle sticks, those popcorn tubs on the bottom shelf of the picture, etc). I love the look of the shelves, and the height is really cool too! I can't wait to get in our new place and get started!!

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Moving, a play by play

Broken Promise

I know I shouldn't promise anything, because it is almost guaranteed that I will break it.

I promised a big post full of details about the move by 7am today.

CLEARLY that didn't happen.

I will get to it by the end of the week. I don't promise ;)

What I do have for you is a revised mood board for my living room. We are about 99% sure that we have found our new apartment! It is available to move in April 28th, but seeing it has given me some time to dream up some fun ideas! I have decided not to paint the walls. Lesson Learned! But that doesn't stop me from wanting to paint something! I have been trying to come up with ways to bring more colors to my pallet and I had a brilliant idea! Because I won't be putting color on the walls, I was worried they would just be big white walls. But I have a solution. I want to get 8 18x18 in Ribba frames from IKEA and fill them with 8 colorful chevron paintings! I will stagger them (like below) for interest! Then I want thick navy striped curtains hung high and wide on the balcony door/ window wall. On the other side of the wall, I want two big Billy book cases, with our entertainment center in the middle. I want them white and I want to paint the back a fun pop of color! Behind the tv, I want to put a big piece of art or maybe some colorful curtains to take away from BWW (big white wall) syndrome.

Feast your eyes!

We want to bring the chevron into the dining room by DIYing a chevron rug from an Ikea Erslev like this tutorial.

I will keep you updated!